I think it is HILARIOUS that I started my last blog post with “I think I’ll write something every Wednesday!”… and then wrote nothing for over a month. Typical!
I’m still Weight Watching (down 29.8 pounds, woot! But it barely shows, wahh). I mean, my clothes are looser, but I can still wear them. My face looks a little bit thinner, but overall? It looks like exactly what it is – a drop in the bucket that is my long-term goal.
I am definitely eating cleaner and healthier, and feeling well and energetic. I sleep well and I mostly wake up feeling rested and refreshed. However, when I get tired it hits me fast and hard. I’m good, I’m good, I’m good… and then I am asleep in a corner, drooling on my arm.
Triathlon training is getting a little intimidating and overwhelming. Not physically – Coach Irondad knows what he’s doing and doesn’t ask me to do anything I can’t handle – but mentally and emotionally, for sure. Looking at the days and weeks ahead, I’m feeling a lot of “Oh shit, how am I going to be able to fit this in and make this work?” But there is really no wiggle room – I HAVE to prepare for the 70.3 I’m doing in December. Lately I’ve been wondering if I’ll be able to complete it in the time allowed (8 hours, 30 minutes). I’m honestly not sure. Though I’ve been training consistently and losing weight, I haven’t really been getting any faster… and I am ridiculously slow. Stress! Self-doubt!
Nothing to do but keep giving it my best.
I decided to try and post on Wednesdays. They’re my weigh-in day for Weight Watchers, and they’re right in the middle of the week, so I’m not trying to collect my thoughts on a hectic Monday or a brain-dead Friday.
I started Weight Watchers on June 6, so it’s been 5 weeks (and 2 days). I’ve lost 18 pounds. That feels pretty good.
However, I’ve had a lot of rough days lately. Going way over budget because something I ate had a much higher points value than I estimated… getting discouraged because progress on long-term goals takes SO. FREAKING. LONG… or not quite sticking to my triathlon training schedule, even though Coach Irondad still has me “building a base” (aka taking it extremely easy). Lately, it feels like I have just as many days feeling down, tired, and unsuccessful as I do feeling great, high energy, and pleased with my progress. If anyone has tips for shifting focus and staying positive, I am all ears!
This past weekend, I celebrated my 30-mumble birthday with a day at Disneyland. I love going to the park, but I made it clear that I was going to be selfish and play it by ear as to what time I’d be leaving. There have been times in the past when being in the sun all day, walking several miles in between rides, etc. has quite done me in. I’ve gotten exhausted and miserable and sore, so I decided to avoid all that by going home exactly when I wanted to, and not worrying about being beholden to anyone else’s preferences. I figured I’d probably make it til about 5 or 6pm before calling it a day.
Try almost 11:30pm.
I spent more than 14 hours enjoying the park with my friends and family before getting tired or feeling any muscular fatigue. We walked about 12 miles. We did pretty much everything we wanted to do. It was a really fun, happy day… and I can’t help but think that my diet and exercise habits over the past few weeks were the main determining factor in being able to enjoy it as long as I did. Since June 6, I’ve been eating a ton more fruits and veggies than I had been, and my portion sizes are appropriate. I’ve been much more active. I’ve been taking better care of myself. And I really think the changes I’ve been making showed up in my energy and stamina at Disneyland.
One of the reasons I want to lose weight is that I don’t want my size or health to stand in the way of anything I want to do – ever. It felt pretty great to have the energy and fitness to be able to stay at the park and enjoy a special day with people I love. Whatever the number on the scale is this week, I know I’m making progress.
Nothing exciting to report. Damn, but progress takes forever!
Weight Watchers is going well. I love love love that most fruits and veggies are 0 points. That might be what makes the difference for me this time, and allows me to be successful. Because, for real, there is always a point at which I feel compelled – either by actual hunger or some feels – to have an eat attack. And that usually derails me, because I’ve messed up, I’ve blown it – I’ve gone off my diet. But when those moments strike… you know the ones:
I can just eat a pile of vegetables and everything is A-OK.
I’ve done my triathlon training workouts as prescribed five days in a row. That feels pretty good. I have a Groupon for a massage, and I promised myself that if I do all my workouts through Sunday, I’ll book it as a little reward.
That is the State of the Gina. How are you doing?
I have to track my activities in the Weight Watchers app, and for each one the options are:
- Low Intensity: Little sweating; can talk easily
- Medium Intensity: Moderate sweating; talking is hard
- High Intensity: Lots of sweating; cannot talk
Dude, it’s been over 100° F every day this week. I’ma have to start talking to myself to figure this out, because “existing” = lots of sweating.
Today I plunked down $70 for 4 months of Weight Watchers. I’m… optimistic? Almost any health/nutrition plan works if you can stick with it and make it a lifestyle change, rather than a “diet.” The tricky part is finding something that fits that description for you.
I’m already trying to figure out how to keep my (210-day!) streak in MyFitnessPal going while on WW, though, because hell if I’m gonna track everything I eat, drink and do in both places. Just no.
Weight Watchers for food, triathlon training for exercise, and my 25+ years of weight loss research and trial and error for everything else. Like, I know it’s important to drink enough water and get enough sleep. I know not to self-sabotage with all-or-nothing thinking. I know I can reference my long list of proven delicious healthy recipes.
I just have to do it.
I just “ran” for the first time in months (and the time before that was probably months as well). The quotation marks are because I only had to run for a total of 5 minutes – and even that I did at my usual lumbering pace. It did not feel good.
Platitudes that are not consoling me:
- Every journey starts with a single step
- You’re still lapping everyone on the couch!
- The only bad workout is the one that didn’t happen
Still, hey, I’m glad I did it.